April 9, 2011
I don't want to sound like a debbie downer but...
I have once again had a really rought week. In church today we learned that we need to be grounded in God and not in our circumstances. I have been bad at that lately. I even called to make an appointment to got back to my original dosage of my antidepressant. (sigh)
Last Saturday I rear-ended a tahoe, twice the size of my Hyundai Sonata. It was deemed a total loss so now I have the joys of finding a reasonable replacement car. A job I interviewed for I found out that I did not get and remain in the inner circle of hell that I call my job. These downs, caused me to through caution to the wind and self-medicate with food. For the last weeks I have been on this weight loss plan overseen by a doctor. I was doing pretty well. Lost 9 lbs. My blood sugars were excellent and I was even considering sending the insulin pump back since I was FINALLY seeing some progress. Then, the rug got pulled out from underneath and I ate my way through the last 7 days. Gaining 3 of the pounds back and feeling so guilty about it, I haven't checked my sugars in days.
We as diabetics do not have the luxury of putting out disease and our health on hold for these meltdowns. Eating a pound of chocolate does not simply affect our weight and our mental state, it affects our well being. Our bodies are under attack. I have to find a better way of dealing with this bad days because it is going against my faith and causes havoc on my body.
I am getting back on track and refocusing on doing what is best for me. My week of rebellion is over for now and I am moving forward.
Looking forward to the Weekend for Women coming up and meeting some of y'all.