March 20, 2011
One thing that most all little girls dream of is one day growing up and becoming moms. They become little mommies to their baby dolls and mimic their moms by feeding, changing them, even rocking them to sleep.
This little girl had the same dreams. As I grew older though, the thoughts of being able to have my own children started becoming a dream that slowly started to drift out of my mind as a possibility because of my diabetes control stopping me from having children later. I can remember my endocrinologist appointments starting to include the talks about pregnancy later in life and how it was important to take control of myself then to avoid complications that might would interfere with pregnancy later. At one appointment I was very irritated about my diabetes control and by that time was sure that I didn't want to have children of my own, that I was fine with adoption. The nurse looked at me and said, "You know just as much as I do that when you find the right guy, you'll want to try for your own family". I can remember telling her that if I found the right guy, he would be okay with adoption. I left there resolved that adoption was the only way for me and that I would not try to carry my own children because of diabetes.
Fast forward about six years. After dating and dating, I finally met the man I wanted to marry. There was only one thing. He was okay with adoption, but he wanted to do everything possible to try for at least one child of our own. Reluctantly, I agreed. We were married, and I started my journey of trying for better control. It wasn't something that happened overnight. It took years. I even gave up for a while, thinking I had tried and control was just something I could not attain.
We later switched endocrinologists, and from there, my control got better. I finally had a doctor that "got" me and my diabetes and he helped me get things under control, and for the first time, I attained an A1c under 7. Pregnancy, then, for the first time became something that we saw as a possibility. After a few visits and steady A1c's in the 6's, we received the okay from the endocrinologist and we then started our journey to become parents.
As of this past November, a year after getting the okay, we got a positive pregnancy test. We are now on our way to becoming parents. A dream that I had let diabetes take from me, I am now living with diabetes. And so far, it's been an amazing journey.