Sad and Happy

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Sad and Happy

January 5, 2012

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.  My Christmas, not so good, but my New Year's was better. My wedding anniversary is on New Year's Eve.  Since it wasn't the first time for myself or my hubby, I thought throw out the old and bring in the new and what better time for that than New Year's Eve.   Had 3 months to get ready and no time to get nervous.    I always had a party on New Year's Eve anyway, so we invited family and friends and tied the blissful knot.  That was 18 years ago.  I  still have a New Year's Eve gathering for a few friends and family back home in SC.  We have lots and lots of food and a fireworks show. 

Now for my sad - I had to make a painful decision that still breaks my heart.  I had to put my 14 year old doggie with diabetes to sleep a few days before Christmas.  It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. My husband, one of my daughters and myself all were with her.  Even though she was shutting down on her own, it didn't make it any easier.  I don't think I have ever been this sad.  I haven't done any testing, because I have been eating like a pig and all bad stuff and a lot of it.  I am hoping to get out of this funk soon.  I keep telling myself that I have so much to be thankful for.  I could go on and on, but I would just depress myself even more.  I am certainly hoping the new year will bring something good very soon.  Woe is me, somebody kick me - hard. Anyone have an idea for a good hobby? 

On a good note, I got to visit with friends that I haven't seen in a long time, usually at our new year's eve celebration.  We had 3 extra folks and they had 3 min pins staying with us for a few days.  The smallest one is of course the fussiest and the bossiest.  My youngest daughter got an 8 week old jack russell.  He is so cute and cuddly and thinks he is big and bad.  My grandson and I spent alot of time together.  All of this really did help me have some joyful moments.  And my college football team, the South Carolina Gamecocks, won a bowl game and my least favorite team, Clemson Tigers, lost in another bowl game. 

Yesterday was my first day back at work after an 11 day vacation.  I stayed in my cubicle sorting through over 2000 emails and never saw anyone.  Today, I just couldn't bring myself to get dressed and go into work, so I worked from home.

I am starting to wish for snow.  Seems we only get cold weather and wind.  Boohoo  Maybe I need to check into renting a snow machine.  Wonder if I can find one on craig's list.  Probably get a better deal during the summer.

I would certainly appreciate your positive and uplifting thoughts sent in my direction.  I know that seeing my Diabetes Sisters always cheer me up.  What a great bunch of ladies.  Can't wait until our next PODs meetup.  I always look forward to them. 

If you haven't enrolled for our yearly conference, please do so now.  The slots go pretty quickly.  I can promise that you will have a wonderful time and meet some wonderful women that you will never forget.  Please look for me when you get there.  The orange:will walk is also a plus.  It started out being cool and windy that morning, but it felt good once you got going. The mayor even walked with us.

Thanks for listening to me.   Until next time, take care.