Cant stay motivated

Hi!! Just happened to stumble upon this site and I am so glad I did. 10 years ago I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes. I knew that there was a chance I develop T2 later, but instead of taking care of myself I ballooned up to almost 200, was diagnosed with high cholesterol, high blood pressure and finally two months ago T2. ALL day long I think about how I need to lose weight, start exercising, watch what I eat..and then when it comes time to eat..its all gone out the window. I feel like I never finish anything. My father and aunt both have/had heart problems and I am terrified I am going to have a heart attack at my age of 29!! Anyways, if you have ANY advice I would really appreicate it.
Posted about 9 years ago