Pre-diabetes and discouraged

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Hi! I'm new to this board. I read about it in a magazine. I was diagnosed as a Pre-diabetic about a year and a half ago at age 31, after 3 diabetic pregnancies. It was a very early diagnosis - the year previous my A1C had been 5. I feel very lucky to have found this board! I feel very lost sometimes. I started off trying very hard after my diagnosis - I ramped up my exercise (1.5 hours/day/5 days/wk), was extremely careful of my diet, took metformin. I went to the diabetes class and the RD told me I needed to lose 20 lbs. so I wouldn't develop diabetes (I'm 5'6" and about 145 lbs, I've always been an active person) and spent weeks making myself sick trying to cut my calories to 1400/day. Then after about 6 months went in for another A1C test, only to find that it had only dropped from 6.2 to 6.1. I haven't been back for an A1C test since. I hadn't lost any weight at all. All that work for what felt like nothing! I guess I had expected it to drop into the normal range. I've been so discouraged ever since - feeling like why bother? It doesn't make any difference anyway. My husband says he doesn't think there is really anything wrong with me. However, deep down I know that I need to take care of myself. I'm just very sad because I feel like there is nothing I can do to prevent this disease from occurring. I'm not usually a whiner, but I just feel defeated and yet, guilty at the same time, for ingnoring it over the last few months. Well, not completely ignoring it, but not following my diet at all. There seems to be two schools of thought from my treatment team - 1) there really isn't any problem, I don't have true diabetes yet so it's no big deal or 2) if I just tried harder, or took better care of myself, then I wouldn't have this disease...type 2 is a lifestyle disease, so it must be my fault, I'm not doing enough, or the right things.

But then I want to know, how many mothers are out there at 8 am pulling two children in a bike trailer for an hour, rain or shine or freezing and lifting weights three times a week? If that's not enough, then what can I do? I also run a household of four children. How can I find the time to do anything else?! Whew! I'm sorry, that was really long, but it does feel better just to get it off my chest. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about it. Everyone around me thinks that pre-diabetes is kind of a joke. And even to me, it seems like you either have it or you don't, there isn't really an in-between. So where does that leave me? Your guess is as good as mine. Wow, I do feel so much better all ready, and I haven't even posted yet. :)

This disease is such a roller coaster for me. I need some encouragement. Remind me why I need to watch my diet. Exercise is usually no problem for me - I love it. I also love carbs, unfortunately!
Posted about 10 years ago