Hello

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My name is Rachelle, I was Dx'd with Type 2back in 2006. Since then I have tried to keep my BG in control, but for the most part failed at it.

I am married, and my husband is no help at all, no matter what I try to explain to him, he conciders it my " problem". I feel so alone, I have no one to talk to, so about 6 months ago I just gave up on taking any of my Meds and just ate what I wanted! Until about 6 or 7 weeks ago, when I had dropped from 215 pounds all the way to 140 pounds. Yes, I was wanting to die, I had given up.

All of a sudden he got really concerned, but I know the real reason he did. I am on Disability and he likes the $900 a month. So, all of a sudden, he is SO worried! We go to the Dr, she starts me back on my meds, plus adds Lantus at night. I am getting better, I guess.

I just feel so alone. I am amazed right now he is not asking who I am writing to.

I hope you understand .

Posted about 2 months ago
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Hi Rachelle,

I am so sorry you aren't getting suport at home and that you are feeling so alone. I hope you are able to find support here in the DiabetesSisters website and in other inline groups.

DiabetesSisters also has in-person support groups, and if there is one near you I hope you will consider going. You can find out more by clidking the PODS Meetup tab above. There is a link to a form you can fill out to get more information.

Please remember that although this is hard, YOU CAN DO IT!! Feeling alone makes it harder, but you are worth the effort. Maybe another family member or a friend can cheer you on. Check back in soon and let us know how you are doing, okay?

Posted about 2 months ago
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Thank you, Karen. I wish there was a PODS group around here, but there isn't one. ( I am in the St. George, Utah area, and there is absolutely no Diabetes support groups around here but one, and when I called the first thing I was asked was " Are you a member of the Church?", when I said no, I was told the group was ONLY for members.
We only have one vehicle, and I can't drive it, so there is no where I can escape to. I'm sorry to be such a "Debbie Downer", but it is like the walls are closing in. There is a Mental Health Service in St. G, but I am about 30 miles away, and there is no bus services out here. I asked my husband to take me and he said he's not going to let me go to some place where I can just put him down. He is a total Narcissist. Everything that ever happens to him is never his fault, it is always eithe rsomewone elses fault, or MY fault. He has me so tightly wound that my hands shake constantly. Just typing this reply is hard.
I just need a shoulder to lean on, and someone some place to let me vent. I can feel the tears coming, so thhan nk you for listening.

Posted about 2 months ago
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I'm so sorry to hear how difficult it is to connect with support. Have you phoned the Mental Health Service to ask if they can find someone you can speak with by phone? Perhaps that is something they have available for those who have no way to get to their offices.

Posted about 2 months ago
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Rachelle:
I'm sorry you are in such a horrific situation. I pray he is not abusive to you and if he is, please get help asap. Maybe you can call the mental health office and they can get you a ride. Just explain your situation to them.
You lose weight and I gain weight. I've been a diabetic since 1/2005 and I have never really understood why some people lose weight and some gain weight.

Posted about 2 months ago