Hi everyone my name is Danna. I have never written on a forum or blogged or anything like this but I wanted to try this and see how it goes. So here it goes. I am 20 years old, working at a factory full time trying to save up for school and a house and a car and pay for medicine all at the same time and it's rather hard, but that's not what I need advice about. I have been a diabetic for 9 years going on 10. I was diagnosed at age 11. When I was first diagnosed I thought it was a terminal illness because I didn't know what diabetes was and I had just had a friends dad that I knew very well pass away from it not even a month before getting diagnosed. Later finding out that it was because he drank himself to death and the alcohol messed with his blood sugar. Anyway I tried to take of myself as best as I could for the longest time, but in school it was rather hard. I got told I was a drug or a drug pusher or a freak and just so much more.well I finally got tired of being made fun of and I quit taking my medicine and taking care of myself. Ever since then I have been up hill and down hill with it. I had moved to Texas to live with my dad and for a while things got better then right back down hill. I moved back to my current location and thing ate a little better well my A1C is anyway but u still very rarely check my sugar or count how much I eat I just take as much insulin as I think I need. Well I want to be able to have a family and live a long life so I want to try to change things around before it's too late. My kidneys are working great nothing wrong with my eyes or nerves everything is just fine as of now. The person that I am with now I really love and I want a long life with him and a family and so I want to do this for not only him but for me and any possible future family. I am in need of advice on how to try to turn this around, any tips on how others have done it. I have been in this routine for a few years now so it's a hard cycle to break but I really want to I just don't rereally have enough motivation I guess. My significant other doesn't know much about this stuff but I try to teach him the basics of when to call the ambulance or stuff food down my face. Anyway I want to change but change is hard for me but I want to try it anyway. I know I can do it I just have to do it. So please if any advice at all would be helpful. Thank you!!!